Jaded, Bitter & Twisted

I'm sick of playing all these games with you.
I'm sick of trying to pretend that I give a shit.
I used to care and sometimes I do
But I'm not waiting 'round to be talked about and abused
(it's not my thing)

I'm not trying to be everything
Just trying to be the best person I can
Through all the sticks & stones you & others throw
I get bruised & I bleed but I still try to be me
(it's hard)

With all these expectations placed on us in this modern world
With all the competition at our doors
While the world becomes so Jaded, Bitter & Twisted
It's hard too, not to become these.

I was never like this & I don't want to become like others have in previous years
While people fall over the ledge & things crumble down around me
I refuse to become Jaded & bitter & twisted & try
I try to be the same sweet child I used to be

I'm not trying to be everything
I'm just trying to be real & feel emotions
While it hurts being lied about & being kicked when your down
Reputations at stake, I just try to be real (I just try to be me)

It's hard while everything's falling down around me
And it's hard when I'm being knocked down by debre
These situations & outside influences I can't control
Seem to be trying to take me down but I refuse to fall
(if I fall I'll get back up)

I'm not trying to be everything
I'm just trying to do my best day to day
Though I may dance, write, act & sing
Though I may model, look good and everything
I'm just trying to be myself
I'm just doing the things I enjoy
Without harm or conflict to any other person
I am no one else
I'm not trying to fit in.


A song I wrote....

28/04/2007